Friday, May 8, 2009

It's Coming To a Close

As things here in Sheffield wind down, I'm seeing the fruit of investing in relationships even when they didn't always feel like they were going anywhere.

This has been one of the most encouraging days I've had in Sheffield, and it's from saying goodbyes. It's funny to me how you sometimes don't realize how you've impacted someone or they've impacted you until you're leaving.

It's weird to say goodbye, knowing that some of these people I will never see again. I talk of coming back to visit and others talk of coming to Texas, and I hope that really will happen. In the meantime, I have to deal with the possibility of that not coming true.

I leave Sheffield on Tuesday, and it's bittersweet.

I'm excited.

I'm nervous.

I'm ready.

I'm not ready.

I faced a lot of change to come here, and now I feel as if I'm facing just as much change coming home. I have to find a job, a place to live, and will have new roommates. This sounds familair....maybe because I did this back in January? In a foreign country?

I'm feeling comfortable here, and now I have to go.

I've changed.

I've grown.

I need to process.


and83 said...

I say don't leave...I would process a lil while longer in Europe :o)

D's Mom said...

It is easy to stay in places and situations where we feel safe -- our safe harbor. But look at what happened when you stepped out into a new country, new continent, new friends, no job....your life is so much richer and blessed with new experiences and friends. Welcome that which frightens you and makes you stretch and grow! Your future is like a blank canvas...paint it beautiful! See you soon.